'Compassion'.. every time I hear that word, it reminds me of the song Mighty to Save by Hillsong United.
If we google that word though, there are few synonyms 'pity - mercy - sympathy - commiseration - ruth - clemency'.
'Pity', I dislike that word! I don't like being pitied, I mean, who does? Being pitied sounds like a lost little puppy on the street in a rainy day. You can't help but feel sorry for it. It is different than actually care for someone.
Be it as it may, 'everyone needs compassion', right?
We all know that one person that seems to be always in trouble but whenever being asked, he/she said they don't wanna talk about it.
It gets old fast, but I think at the end of the day, we have to think as our Father. What would He do? Let's face it, toward our Father, we are just like that one person that we know. Most times, we are in trouble yet instead of talking to Him about it, we chose to..hm.. I don't know be all grumpy, annoyed, angry, or whatever else.
But then EVERY time, He is always there for us, in His merciful way taking care of us.
I know no matter how annoying I've been, He is always there for me. Love that's never failing indeed.
With Him in mind, I'm trying my very best to talk to this friend of mine that seems to be in trouble a lot. Tell you the truth, it's really hard for me to talk to him, we are not really that close and well it's hard to reach out to someone that doesn't give anything back. I mean, one can only reach out so much.
However, I know sooner or later, it could be to me or it could be to someone else, it really doesn't matter, he will eventually open up and talk about whatever problem he may have. I'm sure with just little pushes here and there, he will eventually reach back out instead of just making people reaching out to him.
Don't get me wrong, I would get annoyed every now and then but I tried to remind myself, "hey how about God?! what happened when He got annoyed cause we don't talk to Him? Would He get upset? Would He just walk away from you and your life?" And of course my answer to my own question to myself is a 'NO'. LOL! Yes, I talked to myself sometimes. HAHA.
But anywho, just thought I should blog about this to remind me-self in the future (cause sometimes I get annoyed and couldn't think straight and forget all about it) when it happens again that 'everyone needs compassion..love that's never failing' that's include that friend of mine.
Well, as I told him, he may not be too comfortable talking to me but I hope he finds that one person he can talk to. Truth be told I don't like talking to people about my problems either, but I've those people that would reach out to me and somehow asked all the right questions to make me share and they made me feel better. I'm really grateful to have them in my life indeed! =)
"A new commandment I give to you,
that you love one another: just as I have loved you, you also are to
love one another. By this all people will know that you are my
disciples, if you have love for one another." ~John 13:34-35
Xo for now,
-Na-
ps: I updated Future Reference and Na at Random XP
Monday, January 28, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
Beating Myself Up!
So you know how I avoid all emotional stuff possible? Well, I guess sooner or later one will crack.
I'm not gonna go into detail but I have something that has been bothering me. And I don't like adding my problem to people that have their own problems.
Anyway, today, well guess I should say yesterday, was prolly the weirdest day possible for me. Was at church, was normal w/ the kids yada yada. Then we had our annual meeting yada yada.
Afterwards, something just hit me.. I felt really bad like there was something HUGE and HEAVY on my chest. I didn't feel like talking to people, I didn't even care what was going on around me. I tried my best to get rid of 'it' but I couldn't. So I just got up and left. I walked and walked and walked around Chinatown all by myself to make myself feel better... yeah, it didn't work that well.
It's funny, when I was walking, I met Auntie Mary. She would be the last person I would think would ask me a question 'is everything ok?'. Funny thing was, I was just walking w/ my ipod on and I still smiled and waved when I saw her. But she kept asking if I was ok. I was a little taken aback by it, am I really that easy to read? does my face show it all?
At the end, I ended up at church and I just sat there by myself charging my phone n playing w/ it. People trickled in one by one from I guess lunch and of course they wondered why I was alone n wearing my coat. I think it's always a clear indication for people that there is something wrong w/ me when I don't talk to people or wear my coat inside. LOL! But of course, I'm me, I just brushed them off. Even after Cynter tried asking n giving me a hug, it didn't work. They knew something is up, even people that always bother me, held back and left me alone.
But anyway, Bo n I went for bubble tea, I came back n tried to be all normal. Played around a little, got teased around about this boy-whose name shall not be mention- by PJ n Jacob, people bothered and teased me a little. Then, one by one they went home. There were 3 of us left, I don't really know what happened, we were gonna go home but we were stuck there n ended up chat and chat and chat.
Not sure what part hit me, I suddenly let my issue slipped out n I just broke down! URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I let that happened! I'm seriously beating myself up right now. GAAAHHHH!!!!!! In my life, there is only 1 person outside my immediate family that has seen me broke down like that and I'm sure it freaked her out a little since I'm not usually like that. N now 2 people! Oh gosh!!!! N no, the 2 people aren't those people I would usually have a deep conversation with. Ok maybe one of them is.. but still nobody was suppose to saw me like that!! I would eventually maybe maybe not prolly I'm still not sure actually tell a good friend of mine. Actually, after what happened today, I'm not sure I should tell him, I don't want him to be all freaked out by seeing me like that. And I have a feeling if I retell it, I'll break down yet again.
If you read this good friend of mine, just prepare yourself mentally if at the end I decide to tell you. And I apologize before hand if you end up seeing me break down. LOL!
I'll play it by ear I guess.
Xo for now,
-Na-
I'm not gonna go into detail but I have something that has been bothering me. And I don't like adding my problem to people that have their own problems.
Anyway, today, well guess I should say yesterday, was prolly the weirdest day possible for me. Was at church, was normal w/ the kids yada yada. Then we had our annual meeting yada yada.
Afterwards, something just hit me.. I felt really bad like there was something HUGE and HEAVY on my chest. I didn't feel like talking to people, I didn't even care what was going on around me. I tried my best to get rid of 'it' but I couldn't. So I just got up and left. I walked and walked and walked around Chinatown all by myself to make myself feel better... yeah, it didn't work that well.
It's funny, when I was walking, I met Auntie Mary. She would be the last person I would think would ask me a question 'is everything ok?'. Funny thing was, I was just walking w/ my ipod on and I still smiled and waved when I saw her. But she kept asking if I was ok. I was a little taken aback by it, am I really that easy to read? does my face show it all?
At the end, I ended up at church and I just sat there by myself charging my phone n playing w/ it. People trickled in one by one from I guess lunch and of course they wondered why I was alone n wearing my coat. I think it's always a clear indication for people that there is something wrong w/ me when I don't talk to people or wear my coat inside. LOL! But of course, I'm me, I just brushed them off. Even after Cynter tried asking n giving me a hug, it didn't work. They knew something is up, even people that always bother me, held back and left me alone.
But anyway, Bo n I went for bubble tea, I came back n tried to be all normal. Played around a little, got teased around about this boy-whose name shall not be mention- by PJ n Jacob, people bothered and teased me a little. Then, one by one they went home. There were 3 of us left, I don't really know what happened, we were gonna go home but we were stuck there n ended up chat and chat and chat.
Not sure what part hit me, I suddenly let my issue slipped out n I just broke down! URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe I let that happened! I'm seriously beating myself up right now. GAAAHHHH!!!!!! In my life, there is only 1 person outside my immediate family that has seen me broke down like that and I'm sure it freaked her out a little since I'm not usually like that. N now 2 people! Oh gosh!!!! N no, the 2 people aren't those people I would usually have a deep conversation with. Ok maybe one of them is.. but still nobody was suppose to saw me like that!! I would eventually maybe maybe not prolly I'm still not sure actually tell a good friend of mine. Actually, after what happened today, I'm not sure I should tell him, I don't want him to be all freaked out by seeing me like that. And I have a feeling if I retell it, I'll break down yet again.
If you read this good friend of mine, just prepare yourself mentally if at the end I decide to tell you. And I apologize before hand if you end up seeing me break down. LOL!
I'll play it by ear I guess.
Xo for now,
-Na-
Sunday, January 20, 2013
Am I Overprotective?
So I just heard a very very disturbing story about someone that I really care about.
Apparently when she was younger, she was sexually harassed by a boy. He touched her boobs and tried to touch her part down there! I was FURIOUS!!!!!! WTF! Problem is she didn't tell anybody until 2 years later and she didn't tell me till now!
If I had known the same day it happened, I'm not even joking, that boy would've fly across the room. For his own good, he better not comes back ever again! I don't even care if he is the younger brother of this other girl I know ex-boyfriend. No matter who he is related to, it doesn't matter, it won't help with the fact that he hurt someone that I really care about.
Seriously that boy should never ever step his foot there ever again!
Now, cause of that, I suddenly thought, "am I overprotective to those people I really care about?".
Actually, not too long ago, someone said something along the line "boy, you are really too protective over (insert name here)!" Mind you that person was talking about a guy that is bigger than me that wouldn't need my protection. I just didn't/don't want him to get hurt because of some stupid girls' issues!
So boys and girls, while I'm being nice, please DO NOT play w/ those people I care about feelings! Don't ever intentionally try hurt them! First of all, it would make you an A@#$@#hole, 2nd of all, you might have to deal w/ me. =)
For me, it's normal to be protective to those people I care about but I'm never overprotective. I never prohibited those people I care about from doing something just because I'm afraid for them to get hurt. Nah, none of that, because I also believe in 'sometimes you need to learn from mistakes'. But anyway, what I do is protect them from "outside strange objects" that might hurt them.
Thinking back, this started since I was 7 years old! Ha! yeah, I know I started really young! LOL! But anyway, I was known to beat up boys that would bother me when I was younger and one day, some boys bothered one of my girl friends and guess what I did?! yup! I beat them up! HAHAHA! oh what fun. Funny thing tho, that girl n I were known/called as 2 dolls. She was Indian dolls, I was Japanese doll. LOL! I didn't live up to that name, huh? since Japanese doll is suppose to be all gentle-well I think it's gentle looking. But, ooppzzies, I beat up boys! lol!
Even my aunt wanted me to take care of my younger cousin that's a boy n was slightly bigger than me! what in the world?!!? -_-
Of course the nick name changed when that series Xena, the warrior princess, was well known. Yup, you guess it, I was called Xena for the longest time. ROFL! But of course I was always chosen to be the leader of the class I was in. FUN!
Actually, I was so well known in beating up boys that the principal that was a nun called me up to her office and sat me down to talk about this "issues". At the end of the day, she wanted me to stop beating up boys, instead she wants me to tell her and the teachers.
I used this to my advantage, every time.. not kidding every time a boy bothered me in class I would be like "Ma'am!! he is bothering me!!", the boy would get so scared, it's fun! HAHAHA... yeah, I was mischievous. TEEHEE!
One day tho, the nun, I think wanted me to be a lil gentle or maybe she saw me as a person that will be able to protect that she chose me as one of the 'little Doctor' to help take care of others. Yup, I was a "doctor" once. We wore the coat and all that! we were even sworn and got the diploma and what not. HAHA.
Anyway, this is getting off topic and random! LOL!
Back on the topic, I seriously think I'm not overprotective. I think it's normal that one doesn't want people that one cares about to get hurt. Don't you think so?
Xo for now,
-Na-
Apparently when she was younger, she was sexually harassed by a boy. He touched her boobs and tried to touch her part down there! I was FURIOUS!!!!!! WTF! Problem is she didn't tell anybody until 2 years later and she didn't tell me till now!
If I had known the same day it happened, I'm not even joking, that boy would've fly across the room. For his own good, he better not comes back ever again! I don't even care if he is the younger brother of this other girl I know ex-boyfriend. No matter who he is related to, it doesn't matter, it won't help with the fact that he hurt someone that I really care about.
Seriously that boy should never ever step his foot there ever again!
Now, cause of that, I suddenly thought, "am I overprotective to those people I really care about?".
Actually, not too long ago, someone said something along the line "boy, you are really too protective over (insert name here)!" Mind you that person was talking about a guy that is bigger than me that wouldn't need my protection. I just didn't/don't want him to get hurt because of some stupid girls' issues!
So boys and girls, while I'm being nice, please DO NOT play w/ those people I care about feelings! Don't ever intentionally try hurt them! First of all, it would make you an A@#$@#hole, 2nd of all, you might have to deal w/ me. =)
For me, it's normal to be protective to those people I care about but I'm never overprotective. I never prohibited those people I care about from doing something just because I'm afraid for them to get hurt. Nah, none of that, because I also believe in 'sometimes you need to learn from mistakes'. But anyway, what I do is protect them from "outside strange objects" that might hurt them.
Thinking back, this started since I was 7 years old! Ha! yeah, I know I started really young! LOL! But anyway, I was known to beat up boys that would bother me when I was younger and one day, some boys bothered one of my girl friends and guess what I did?! yup! I beat them up! HAHAHA! oh what fun. Funny thing tho, that girl n I were known/called as 2 dolls. She was Indian dolls, I was Japanese doll. LOL! I didn't live up to that name, huh? since Japanese doll is suppose to be all gentle-well I think it's gentle looking. But, ooppzzies, I beat up boys! lol!
Even my aunt wanted me to take care of my younger cousin that's a boy n was slightly bigger than me! what in the world?!!? -_-
Of course the nick name changed when that series Xena, the warrior princess, was well known. Yup, you guess it, I was called Xena for the longest time. ROFL! But of course I was always chosen to be the leader of the class I was in. FUN!
Actually, I was so well known in beating up boys that the principal that was a nun called me up to her office and sat me down to talk about this "issues". At the end of the day, she wanted me to stop beating up boys, instead she wants me to tell her and the teachers.
I used this to my advantage, every time.. not kidding every time a boy bothered me in class I would be like "Ma'am!! he is bothering me!!", the boy would get so scared, it's fun! HAHAHA... yeah, I was mischievous. TEEHEE!
One day tho, the nun, I think wanted me to be a lil gentle or maybe she saw me as a person that will be able to protect that she chose me as one of the 'little Doctor' to help take care of others. Yup, I was a "doctor" once. We wore the coat and all that! we were even sworn and got the diploma and what not. HAHA.
Anyway, this is getting off topic and random! LOL!
Back on the topic, I seriously think I'm not overprotective. I think it's normal that one doesn't want people that one cares about to get hurt. Don't you think so?
Xo for now,
-Na-
Saturday, January 19, 2013
The Unusual Beliefs
Wow! I'm on a roll, huh? posting twice in one night or should I say dawn? LOL!
But anyway, I'm sure y'all know how I love watching all the crime series, CSI, NCIS, Criminal Minds, etc.
Was watching CSI NY just now and there is this guest star that I thought has this ruggedly handsome look! N you guys also know I'm usually not interested in non-Asian guys, heck..when my girl friends were all crazy about how handsome Brad Pitt was, I remember how I said 'seriously?' all the time.
But anyway, back to the CSI guy, his name is Johann Urb, , never heard of him before and yes I actually googled him. LOL!
HOWEVER, I was disappointed after I googled him and saw more photos, eh.. ain't that handsome no more. I guess, I just like his character in CSI, see below.
So,what I'm trying to say is.. you know how some people say 'it's impossible to like someone if we are not attracted to that person physically first.' ? Yeah, I think it's totally possible, if we are not interested to someone like that, just friends and what not but then afterwards we found out how awesome he/she is, characters wise, it wouldn't be shocking that we would actually like that person.
Also, how they say 'if someone said, they like someone because of their personalities/characters, that means that person is ugly'. That's not true too! take this CSI guy for example, I was like wow! but then after I saw more photos of him that I'm sure any other girls will love-he is a model after all! LOL! But I was disappointed, I really just liked his characters/personalities. Ooppzies. XP
Anyway, since we are in the topic of my unusual "beliefs". Another one, been talking about criminal minds at work lately. A coworker really really thinks/wants this well, she said, HOT guy character called Morgan and Garcia a funny, loveable, geeky girl character to hook up.
I was like 'heeecccccckk NO!' LOL! the reason I don't agree is coz those two are like best friends, their relationship is so cute! He calls her 'baby girl, etc' and she will call him 'hot stuff, etc'. It's like they are both just best friends and very comfortable with each other.
What I'm trying to say about my unusual belief is I actually believe that a guy and a girl can be best friends w/ no other feeling attached. I know most believe that a guy and a girl can't be best friends and when they are so close to each other, they would always.. always assume that one likes the other.
Trust me, this is from my own personal experiences! LOL! I am usually friends w/ guys more than girls and recently one of my guy friends n I get really close, people would ask me 'do u like (insert guy's name here)?'-n no this is not the first time I got asked about my guy friends!LOL!- and I would just roll my eyes. At times, I wouldn't even entertain them and just don't give them an answer and that makes them wonder even more. LOL!
Why don't I just explain myself? well that just it.. I don't feel the need to explain myself to anybody, why should I? I don't owe them anything and nope I don't care if they think I like my guy best friend. What matter to me the most is that between my guy best friend and I, we both know what's going on.Who cares about what other thinks?! BUT, it's kinda somewhat nice to know that I wasn't the only get asked about, so did he. LOL!
Anyway, those r some of my unusual-ness. ;p
Xo for now,
-Na-
But anyway, I'm sure y'all know how I love watching all the crime series, CSI, NCIS, Criminal Minds, etc.
Was watching CSI NY just now and there is this guest star that I thought has this ruggedly handsome look! N you guys also know I'm usually not interested in non-Asian guys, heck..when my girl friends were all crazy about how handsome Brad Pitt was, I remember how I said 'seriously?' all the time.
But anyway, back to the CSI guy, his name is Johann Urb, , never heard of him before and yes I actually googled him. LOL!
HOWEVER, I was disappointed after I googled him and saw more photos, eh.. ain't that handsome no more. I guess, I just like his character in CSI, see below.
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Also, how they say 'if someone said, they like someone because of their personalities/characters, that means that person is ugly'. That's not true too! take this CSI guy for example, I was like wow! but then after I saw more photos of him that I'm sure any other girls will love-he is a model after all! LOL! But I was disappointed, I really just liked his characters/personalities. Ooppzies. XP
Anyway, since we are in the topic of my unusual "beliefs". Another one, been talking about criminal minds at work lately. A coworker really really thinks/wants this well, she said, HOT guy character called Morgan and Garcia a funny, loveable, geeky girl character to hook up.
I was like 'heeecccccckk NO!' LOL! the reason I don't agree is coz those two are like best friends, their relationship is so cute! He calls her 'baby girl, etc' and she will call him 'hot stuff, etc'. It's like they are both just best friends and very comfortable with each other.
What I'm trying to say about my unusual belief is I actually believe that a guy and a girl can be best friends w/ no other feeling attached. I know most believe that a guy and a girl can't be best friends and when they are so close to each other, they would always.. always assume that one likes the other.
Trust me, this is from my own personal experiences! LOL! I am usually friends w/ guys more than girls and recently one of my guy friends n I get really close, people would ask me 'do u like (insert guy's name here)?'-n no this is not the first time I got asked about my guy friends!LOL!- and I would just roll my eyes. At times, I wouldn't even entertain them and just don't give them an answer and that makes them wonder even more. LOL!
Why don't I just explain myself? well that just it.. I don't feel the need to explain myself to anybody, why should I? I don't owe them anything and nope I don't care if they think I like my guy best friend. What matter to me the most is that between my guy best friend and I, we both know what's going on.Who cares about what other thinks?! BUT, it's kinda somewhat nice to know that I wasn't the only get asked about, so did he. LOL!
Anyway, those r some of my unusual-ness. ;p
Xo for now,
-Na-
Random thought #4 - The Simple Little Things in Life
Some people say, "the big things in life are the ones that matter", some say "the little things in life are the ones that matter".
As for me.. The big things in life are those little things, those are the things that matter for me.
I don't think I ever say it before but for me, I appreciate all the little things that I did/do/will do w/ those people I care about more than all the big things I did/do/will do w/ others.
Say hanging out, doing nothing n just lazying around watching whatever and a simple dinner w/ people I actually care about is more important to me than going out to a fancy dinner for free with someone I couldn't care less.
Another example, hanging out, playing video games w/ a friend I care n enjoy spending time w/ versus going to say paintball-ing (i've been wanting to go, btw!) somewhere w/ random people. I mean yeah! I would love to go paintball-ing. But no, I would rather play video games if that means I get to hangout w/ people I care about.
Sometimes we feel like we need to give in to the pressure of hanging out w/ the big group, the "awesome", glamorous, fancy people. But truth be told, they don't matter! The ones that matter are those people maybe just a few of them and maybe they are not as fancy, but we love them because they are who they are and because around them we are who we are. They matter way more than those fancy people.
I honestly am grateful and glad to have those people whom I can enjoy spending my time with, with no drama or craziness. =D
Xo for now,
-Na-
As for me.. The big things in life are those little things, those are the things that matter for me.
I don't think I ever say it before but for me, I appreciate all the little things that I did/do/will do w/ those people I care about more than all the big things I did/do/will do w/ others.
Say hanging out, doing nothing n just lazying around watching whatever and a simple dinner w/ people I actually care about is more important to me than going out to a fancy dinner for free with someone I couldn't care less.
Another example, hanging out, playing video games w/ a friend I care n enjoy spending time w/ versus going to say paintball-ing (i've been wanting to go, btw!) somewhere w/ random people. I mean yeah! I would love to go paintball-ing. But no, I would rather play video games if that means I get to hangout w/ people I care about.
Sometimes we feel like we need to give in to the pressure of hanging out w/ the big group, the "awesome", glamorous, fancy people. But truth be told, they don't matter! The ones that matter are those people maybe just a few of them and maybe they are not as fancy, but we love them because they are who they are and because around them we are who we are. They matter way more than those fancy people.
I honestly am grateful and glad to have those people whom I can enjoy spending my time with, with no drama or craziness. =D
Xo for now,
-Na-
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
New Year = New me?
Happy NEW YEAR everyone!!!!!! =) --> I know, one day late.. was trying to post it before the 1st ended but busy day today. Oh well.
So New Year eh? any new year resolution?! Meh.. I don't think I have any. I mean I guess I've an overall goal but no I don't have a list. My overall goal this year is just to be a better person, to be more mature, and to grow spiritually.
I'm really really glad to have a friend that I can always count on. Actually am really surprised that our relationship grows closer. =) I mean not even trying to get anybody say something like "no, you are not, yada..yada" but I could be pretty annoying I know. LOL! It's not like I do it on purpose, I'm just me. I'm one of those people when I care, I care soooo much, maybe too much? I don't know. But when I don't, I could just ignore you like you are not even there.
Hmm..maybe I should add that to my New Year goal, I mean after all that's included to be a better person right?
PJ one said, "it is easy to love someone that you already love but, it's HARD to love someone that you don't love". And I have to agree there. I'm bad because I've a so called "care list". It's basically a mental list w/ people that I care about on it. It's not that easy to be on it but it's really easy to be crossed out of it. Yeahhhh...I should try harder to love those people I don't love.
But I mean, truth be told I've been letting go on stuff. Say, there is this someone I don't get along w/ at all. I think she doesn't like me because word on the street is I'm too crazy. Eh, maybe I am, who knows. And I avoid her because I don't like how she is so bossy and how sometimes she talks to people like she is giving command to them. Maybe, it's all just a misunderstanding, who knows?
Anyway, I've been trying my best to just you know be civil about it, alright not that we fight, it's not there yet, hence I avoid her, because I know if I don't avoid her, we will fight for sure. But yeah, lately I treat her like an acquaintance. Hey, that's progress for me cause I'm one hard headed one right here.
I think it's back to those Godly people I keep surrounding myself with. They really are a good influence. Don't get me wrong, I'm still me, still have my own personality and my 'tude here and there. I mean, seriously, w/o em, I won't be me right?
Anywhoooo.. I think I'll end this here. That's my New Year resolution. To be a better me w/o actually erasing my own identity. After all God created me the way I am! One friend said, he is glad to have such a caring and UNIQUE friend like me. Haha.. UNIQUE? Weird?
Whatever it is, this NEW YEAR, I'm glad to still have those important people in my life and especially God. <3
Xo for now,
-Na-
So New Year eh? any new year resolution?! Meh.. I don't think I have any. I mean I guess I've an overall goal but no I don't have a list. My overall goal this year is just to be a better person, to be more mature, and to grow spiritually.
I'm really really glad to have a friend that I can always count on. Actually am really surprised that our relationship grows closer. =) I mean not even trying to get anybody say something like "no, you are not, yada..yada" but I could be pretty annoying I know. LOL! It's not like I do it on purpose, I'm just me. I'm one of those people when I care, I care soooo much, maybe too much? I don't know. But when I don't, I could just ignore you like you are not even there.
Hmm..maybe I should add that to my New Year goal, I mean after all that's included to be a better person right?
PJ one said, "it is easy to love someone that you already love but, it's HARD to love someone that you don't love". And I have to agree there. I'm bad because I've a so called "care list". It's basically a mental list w/ people that I care about on it. It's not that easy to be on it but it's really easy to be crossed out of it. Yeahhhh...I should try harder to love those people I don't love.
But I mean, truth be told I've been letting go on stuff. Say, there is this someone I don't get along w/ at all. I think she doesn't like me because word on the street is I'm too crazy. Eh, maybe I am, who knows. And I avoid her because I don't like how she is so bossy and how sometimes she talks to people like she is giving command to them. Maybe, it's all just a misunderstanding, who knows?
Anyway, I've been trying my best to just you know be civil about it, alright not that we fight, it's not there yet, hence I avoid her, because I know if I don't avoid her, we will fight for sure. But yeah, lately I treat her like an acquaintance. Hey, that's progress for me cause I'm one hard headed one right here.
I think it's back to those Godly people I keep surrounding myself with. They really are a good influence. Don't get me wrong, I'm still me, still have my own personality and my 'tude here and there. I mean, seriously, w/o em, I won't be me right?
Anywhoooo.. I think I'll end this here. That's my New Year resolution. To be a better me w/o actually erasing my own identity. After all God created me the way I am! One friend said, he is glad to have such a caring and UNIQUE friend like me. Haha.. UNIQUE? Weird?
Whatever it is, this NEW YEAR, I'm glad to still have those important people in my life and especially God. <3
Xo for now,
-Na-
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