Random thought #3 - The thought on the mission

I know I shouldn't be updating my blog right about now. I have tons of stuff I have to do for Christmas! I'm doing something different this year for my self-made Christmas card. Nope, not a flat card this year. Some of u gotta wait for it. ;) Yeah only some.. It's a bigger project than I thought it'll be. Sorry.

Anyway.... Today topic, 'mission trip'. Small group the other day n we discussed this n I keep thinking about it, that's why I thought I should blog about it.

'What do you guys think when the word mission comes up?' twas one question brought up. Immediately a picture of this girl I know from collage popped up in mind. We r not really friends, she was one of the models for my fashion show.
Few months back I saw a picture of her on fb on a mission trip in Haiti w/ the local kids there n first thing popped up in my mind was 'WOW! That's awesome! I never would have thought that she would do something like going for a mission trip!'
Yeah, I know I guess I judged. But anyway, for real, I think people that go to mission trips like that are AWESOME. You wouldn't even believe the admiration I have for them.

How about me? Errmm.. I don't think I'd be able to do it. I don't think I have it in me.
A friend said 'I think you do, you don't need all the fancy stuff.. I think..' haha that's nice of him to say that he thinks I'm not a spoiled brat.
I mean yeah, I don't need all the fancy thing, I don't care about branded stuff-shocking I know since I'm in the fashion industry, I don't need to be wine and dine. I could sleep on the floor, go camping, or get down n dirty like having fun while changing a flat tire-but 'twas really fun. Lol!

Anywhooo! I'm not sure how would I be in a foreign place, I guess? Wait,  U.S. used to be a foreign place. Hmm. Lol! Ok, I honestly don't know, I don't really have a strong reason for saying 'I don't have it in me'. Maybe I'll be all into it when God decided to make me go to mission trip? Who knows.

What I really want to say is.. All of you missionaries out there are AWESOME! The time you sacrificed, heck you guys even sacrificed your lives. That's admirable!
I'm sure it's hard but keep doing what you are doing! I know God will bless you w/ a lot more!
Just taught this in Bethel Kids Church (name of the Sunday School at church I go to).."You reap MORE THAN you sow". I love Bethel Kids, I teach but I learn more than I teach! =D


Xo for now,

-Na-

Random thought #2 - A Snap of a Finger

Wouldn't it be nice if just w/ a snap of a finger you can get whatever you wanted?
*SNAPPED* Girls lined up and dropped like flies - LOL to a certain someone. *SNAPPED* all your wishes came true. It probably would be. But would we value it? Probably not.

Think about it. Say a relationship - I know I know I use relationship a lot, hey.. it's what's been the topic in my life lately, so let's just go w/ it ok!??! lol! Ok, relationship, if we have it easy, we can get any boy/girl we want and be in relationship w/ them, wouldn't it be awesome? sounds like it, but really tho, would it be worth it? would we put effort into it? would we care much about it? Probably not.

One day, we were randomly talking about those Asian dramas, and it came up that I like the kind where the couples have to work hard to be together. This is what exactly I said.."gotta work for it yo!" and a guy friend of mine just giggle probably thinking.."oh girls!" lol!
Don't get me wrong, I H-A-T-E drama, but I like that kind of story line because it shows us how they worked hard, taking down every challenges came their way just to be together. And at the end when they are together, they value each other sooo very much and it's all worth it. =)

And NO girls and boys, I'm not trying to support you little ones or dang, EVEN people my age that play game all the time. Girls, playing hard to get may be ok at the beginning and yes guys like the chase but it gets old real fast. N boys, you know when they say 'usually when a boy teases/pranks a girl that means he likes her'. Yeah that, get old real fast too! *roll eyes*
Just show that you are thoughtful and caring, it works so much better and faster! That lil game, you can play it every now and then just to add a lil spark in your relationship. Think B-A-L-A-N-C-E, it's key, a relationship that's stay the same and monotone gets boring too. Keep each other on each other's toes! ;p

Also, I've learned to never say never - so not quoting Beiber's song here! LOL! But really, we don't know what will happen in the future. Whether we want to believe it or not, our lives are in God's hands.
So this question comes up a lot to me, don't know if it's just random or it was a serious question.. LOL! 'would you ever date (insert name here)?' Don't get me wrong most of my guy friends are awesome! They are jerky gentlemen! LOL! They could be jerks-the funny kind tho, but all in all they are awesome and any girl would be lucky to date them.--> such a proud friend I am! ;p
But why did I say 'no' to the question asked? If they are awesome, why don't I date them? Ok, first of all, I'm sure none of them think of me that way. So why bother? LOL! And well, I for one believe that boys and girls can be just friends. Obviously I like them! I wouldn't be friends w/ people I don't like. LOL!
I said 'no' at the moment because I guess I don't see them that way in this moment. A week, a month, or a year from now, who knows what will happen?!

I know God will provide what is best for us and that includes soulmate. We never know, the one for you could be under your nose all this time, he/she could be that one friend that you always think 'oh come on he and I? no way!' Or the annoying little OR big ones.

Whatever it is, in everything in life never say never. God has His plan for us. No matter how hard we try to control our lives, at the end of the day, He is the one in control. 
Our lives may not be as easy as a snap of a finger, but He ALWAYS makes it worth while. I believe that in most definitely.

I know it's freakin hard to just let God controls our lives. Heck, I got upset when I don't get what I want too. I sometimes questioned God, "why God, why don't you answer my prayer?"
Last Sunday, I think PJ said something like, "it's not like He doesn't answer your prayer, maybe that's your answer, Him not giving it to you, He has a better plan. Or He hasn't answer your prayer just yet. Be patient. Don't get discourage".

²³ At that time you won’t need to ask me for anything. I tell you the truth, you will ask the Father directly, and he will grant your request because you use my name. ²⁴ You haven’t done this before. Ask, using my name, and you will receive, and you will have abundant joy. John 16:23-24

My take from that is just to keep praying, I know it's hard, sometimes I don't have the time, ok more like I feel like I don't have the time. But if God has all the time for me, how come I don't have the time for Him? And if I don't even have the time for Him, why do I get upset when He has yet to answer my prayer? Yeah I know I have a lot of growing up to do. HEEEE...

"I have so much to do that I shall spend the first three hours in prayer." Martin Luther

A friend shared that and I thought, dang that's hard. We only have 24 hours in a day and I have so much going on. Errr.. hello, God has a lot of prayers to answer, not just ours while I only have one God to pray to. So errrm... yeah.

So I guess, we just have to keep living our lives, work hard, play hard, PRAY hard, thrive for whatever it is we have in mind but when the time comes, in a snap of a finger, ask ourselves this, are we ready for God to take control? *GIGGLE* I think that sounded like "are you ready for a throw down?" by Bobby Flay. haha. My bad.


Xo for now,

-Na-

Random thought #1- Count your blessings

Read a friend's note about 'counting your blessing' and our Pastor's message came to mind. Actually this message is one of the messages that has been in my mind and heart ever since he said it.

Surround yourself with Godly people.

Ever since I heard that, I took it in and run with it. I've been hindering myself from those people that I know is a bad influence to me. Don't get me wrong, I don't blame them for it. It's not their faults, it's my own fault for letting me get dragged in into the "bad". Not trying to justify myself, but I'm just human, I'm not perfect, I got influenced, I got tempted. It's just a matter of being strong or being weak about it.

Yes I am stubborn, yes I'm hard headed and yes I'm really strong in what I believe in. But no matter how strong I am, I got dragged every now and then.
Therefore, I decided to let those people that I know would dragged me down go and surround myself w/ Godly people. It's a sacrifice, I've to let go of some friends in order to be stronger, to be a better person and to learn more and more from these Godly friends of mine.
But who am I to complain about these sacrifices I've to make when God sacrificed His only Son for us? Like really? My sacrifices is nothing compare to THAT. 

Truth be told tho, of course, I had that..'sigh, this is kinda suck' but then, over time, now I'm like.. 'Oh wow, I'm so relieved that PJ (Pastor's names) said that and I'm glad I let go.' I'm not gonna say 'oh my life has been 100% better' but I will and most definitely can say that God has blessed me w/ these Godly awesome friends that I've now and I'm really glad for them. Life as you know it has been a lot calmer.

Don't get me wrong, those people I let go will always be a little part of me. Through them I learned God must have put them in my life for me to learn about the good, the bad, the choices I've to make, and to learn what kind of person do I want me to be, what kind of person God wants me to be. And I'm thankful for that. After all, life is a big learning experience right? ;)

Same goes w/ these Godly friends God has put in my life. They ARE and WILL always be a BIG part of who I am and who I will be in the future. God blessed them w/ wisdom, patience and love for the little annoying me and God blessed me w/ them as part of my life and I'm grateful.

And that's one of the blessing that's on my list of 'count your blessings'. =)


Xo for now,

-Na-

Perspective

I'm not those sappy girls nor do I have even one romantic bone in my body. But, I'm going thru stuff lately and believe it or not this series from wongfu kinda somehow.. Hmm, let's just say I can relate. Watch here... the last episode is the reason I wrote this post. :T
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y_9YJ4NmawE

It's like about a girl and a boy - YEAH! surprise surprise. Lol! what else is new lately anyway beside that one topic?! Anyway, Tammy likes this boy Matt, that likes another girl Anna. Of course Tammy doesn't tell him and always be that friend that's always there for Matt. N there is another guy Justin that likes Tammy, but Tammy was blinded by Matt n Jason is always there for Tammy. Yup those kinda story.
However, what I'm trying to relate is not the story between A like B, B like C etc. But the relationship between the "friends". Say Tammy and Justin they are friends but Tammy doesn't know that Justin like her. So errrm.. I just randomly thought of this just now...

Say, I have that friend, a guy that I can always depend to, but how would I know how he really feels whenever I tell him all this story I've w/ another guy? Ok it's not like I think he likes me (I'm sure the guy friend that I've in mind will never like me in that way....) then I would hurt him kinda thing. I think what made me wonder is just more like whatever I say may or may not affect him.
Ok, this is confusing, a friend of mine posted this before and it made me think..

I'm learning more and more, that like God, whatever I say...creates. Whether it's on fb, twitter, youtube, or in person, every time I have an opportunity to say something, I'm creating or at least adding to the setting I'm in. Am I creating a good atmosphere? Or am I indirectly bringing down people? Such an important question to ask ourselves.

That, get it?! U know I hate regretting stuff but sometimes I feel like "hey, maybe I shouldn't say that? what if it changes stuff? what if what I said affected my friend?". I think that's one of the reason why I don't like to weigh people down w/ my problems? Aside from the fact that I don't want to add more to others', they have their own problems, who am I to add more to their already busy lives? Ya know?
But see, if I'm on their shoes and a friend of mine don't tell me stuff because of the same reasons I have, I would probably think, "wth? I thought we are friends?"

Arggghh! maybe all this is just in my head?! U know most of my friends are guys and I like talking to them more than girls, because they bring in different perspectives. Is it the right one? maybe so.
This is a nice quote btw..

Whatever side you're on, always keep in mind that the right perspective makes a big difference!

Sometimes, I wonder if my guy friends ever think that "hey, I talked to Na about all these girls, whatever happen if she actually likes me? Did I hurt her? Did what I say affected her in any way?"

I know for dang sure it's hard to say stuff to your friends, especially giving advices, suggestions, or opinions. You don't want to say the wrong things.

You know what.. this is crazy.. I don't even know where I'm getting at. I guess I just want to remind myself to be careful when I say stuff the next time?! But then again, if I'm on the receiver side, I want my friends to tell me what they think. No matter if it's bad or good or what will the end result be. The way I see it, if I took that advice and something bad happened. Hey, maybe it meant to happen and most importantly it's really my own fault for taking the advice. It's not like I don't have my own head to think with, to decide if I want to follow that advice or not.

At the end of the day, whatever advice we took from someone.. I think we know that the reason we followed that advice is because subconsciously, we already know that we were gonna do the same anyway. I think talking and following the one advice is just a comfort/security issues. Like, "ah see, I knew I was right. I was gonna do that to begin with anyway." Well then again, it's maybe just me.

The right perspective.. it could be.. or it could just be the comforting perspective.

Aiya..dunno la! lemme end this yo! But rest assure guy friends out there, I don't have feeling toward yous like that. That being said tho..

I don't know what will happen in the future. None of us do, only God knows what will happen in our lives. What we know for sure is that God put those people in our lives for a reason. 

And I believe that feelings can change no matter what we said or told ourselves. Hey you never know you might ended up liking that one friend that you thought would always be your bud and nothing more. Feeling, it happens.
Have I tell you lately I don't like this thing called "feeling" ? BLAH! Always complicates stuff!! Especially if you are me, the girl that apparently known to not show her feelings. Actually maybe that's why I don't show feelings.. it complicates stuff.

Ok I'm done. This randomness is getting out of hand! LOL!


Xo for now,

-Na-

Na at Random-updated

Since this blog is for all the random things in my life, thought, what's best then putting all the random things about me. LOL!
Like previous post, this will be updated as I find more about myself...;)

• I get easily amazed by the simplest thing.

Like this popcorn on the pan thing. I was so amazed how it was flat then it blew up like that. ROFL (hope my friend doesn't mind that he is feature on my blog. Oppziess *giggle*)

• I get amused by the stupidest thing. 





Like this.. It says 'SMH' staff. I giggled away. so like 'Shake My Head' has staff?! ROFL! I know! sorry! I'm so bad! LOL!

• I get excited over the most random thing like the fact that there is a video on my 'queue' on hulu.
• I get very picky. Like say I need to get white mugs for X'mas, went to place A-don't like the shape, place B-like the shape but don't like the bottom part, place C-perfect! but think eh..I'll check place D, maybe it'll be better. Yeah! me! sometimes I SMH to myself! LOL!
•  I get addicted n bored very easily. Take this blog for example. XP

12/15/12 --> can't think of anything else for now.

• I like old people. Elderly I think is the best and the cutest. All the stories they have, it's nice to hear em. It sadden me when I saw them on the street w/ no one caring about em. Sigh.
• I improvise a lot coz ermm.. I'm lazy sometimes. Say made soup for lunch, I thought I had onion but nope.. NADA. Too lazy to go out n get em.. oh well, soup w/ no onion it is! It ain't bad tho. Garlic did the trick! HEEE..

12/16/12

• I just realized how I feel kinda weird when I do nice thing to people n they say thank you. I don't know why. I just feel weird. Guess that being said, I get really shy (gassppp, I know.. me? shy?!) when people said I'm nice or something else along that area. Which I usually reply w/ "I think you got the wrong person, I'm not nice at all. I'm a meanie!' which is not a lie. lol!
• W/ that being said.. despite all the craziness that I am, I'm kinda a shy girl. Erm.. yeah. No comment.
• I've all these rules that I made up that I follow. Like if I promised someone something I've to fulfill it no matter what. Say, don't make a promise you can't keep right?! Another one to never be late! because I dislike waiting, so I don't want people to wait for me either.

12/17/12--> late night thoughts! I really need to sleep! gahhhh!

• I DON'T LIKE stuffed animal. Sure I think some is cute but no I wouldn't get it and go cuddle w/ it. Yeah no.
• I get unexplainable bruises a lot. I don't know why. Like now, I've 2 inches long of a bruise on my right leg. Yea.

12/17/12--> the same day after the late night. LOL!

• I don't like peeling shrimps or oranges! Only when I'm eating tho. I don't mind it when I'm cooking.
• I hate admitting that I'm sick. Why? I don't know n w/ that being said, I don't like taking medication whatsoever. 

12/30/12

• Not a lot of people know this but I enjoy playing video games and I read manga here and there.
• I can be very much a geek. I like technology and electronic. I fixed my coworkers' phones, computer or any other issues they have w/ softwares or apps. Tho I have the oldest of electronics stuff. 

1/31/13

Xo for now,

-Na-

For Future Reference!

So of course, as we are getting older now, what's the hot topic?!?! M-A-R-R-I-A-G-E! yup! That word that for some of us make us cringe, but for a lil of us, we are actually looking forward to it! --> I'm in this little batch. ;p

Why am I in that lil batch? I'm not sure, I think the idea of having and being w/ that someone for the rest of our lives is just wonderful. Of course I know there is always up and down in every relationship, especially with me. I don't think I'm a horrible person but I just get bored really fast..not saying I'll get bored w/ that person I will love w/ all my heart but.. hey I think "keep her on her toes" has to be in my future soulmate's brain. LOL! N as soon as you figure me out, you will know that I'm really easy to please. Just be thoughtful and you are done. ;)

BUT! Every time I saw old couples on the street, shopping together or heck maybe they are on their date. I always always have this.."awwwww... I hope when I get that old, my husband n I will still be doing stuff together just like them!" It's just soooo sweet! I'm not a romantic kinda gal, but sweet, cute stuff like that get me all the time! Suckkkaaa!! LOL!

So here we are.. here I am, talking about the random stuff I want to do w/ my future soulmate... =)

(I'll add more to this post in the future)

• Since it's the winter time and I LOVE winter.. Lately this thought has randomly been in my mind! I want want want it to be snow already! N when I have that someone, I want us to be outside in a snowy day playing in the snow! I've 8 years of snow already but I've never do a snow angel n it'll be such a wonderful feeling if/when I make my first snow angel w/ 'him'. TEEHEE! Maybe w/ my 2 favorites Xmas songs playing in the background? 'Last Christmas' and 'Baby it's cold outside'
• Recently went to a couple of events where it's involved dancing. Be it group dancing, slow dancing, or any other kinda dancing. And I realized how I really enjoy them! Guess there is a reason why I took ballroom dancing in college? lol!
  But yeah, if we are going to a wedding or any other events where there is dancing, I want 'him' to forget the fact that we will look silly and just dance w/ me! Have fun! It bothered me when I went to my friends' wedding and people just didn't dance. First of all, it's your friends' wedding, help the couple out to make their wedding more fun by dancing (remember this when it's my wedding, I expected my friends to dance ok?! thanks! lol!)! 2nd of all, it's a wedding.. just have fun and dance. Don't get me wrong clubs ain't my thing but dancing in events w/ the people you know is different.
  

  
  

  Just let loose and have fun, who cares about being silly?! it's all good! Truth be told, I think there is something w/ a guy that can dance BUT a guy that won't shy away n just dance together however bad/silly it might be is just ABSOLUTELY ADORABLE! XD

12/14/12 -- I'll add more when I randomly think of something... =)

• Walk around the city at night, holding hands, enjoying the night and the lights in a nice cold weather. TEEHEE.. 

12/15/12

•  Since it's Xmas time, I just thought of this. LOL! It'll be nice for him n me to dress up nice, go to dinner, nothing fancy just a nice dinner. Then take a picture by a pretty full of light Christmas tree. The kind that you can really see the faces tho, so it's not too too cheesy. TEEHEE. 
  

See.. isn't it pretty? (stole this from a friend, I'm sure she doesn't mind. LOL!)

12/16/12

• Was just talking to a friend. He brought up road trip! L-O-V-E. When I was a kid, my dad would drive us all to his hometown or my mom's hometown. He would drove around the crazy cliffs (not that he had a choice, that's just the only way to the rural area), the crazy buses and trucks' drivers - not even kidding it was crazy but my dad enjoyed it, my mom used to yell at him because he kept zigzag-ing w/ the buses n trucks, and me and my sister was just enjoying it thinking it was like go kart! lol! Then we would stop at these tiny little food places that he said he used to go when he was younger. And I really really miss that. Tho my dad would complained because he was the only one driving and I'm sure it was tiring but he still did it because truth be told he loves driving! lol!
  Now then.. I would love to do that w/ 'him'! Of course I will get my license first so we both can enjoy the trip. Just to drive somewhere together, enjoy the nice conversations, the musics that play in the background and most importantly the adventure that we will have together. NOW HURRY Na and get your dang license already! >_> lol!

12/17/12

• Watch broadway/concert/show together. To think about it, I've never been to a concert! not really. I went to bunch of jazz ones when I was younger and not too long ago went to Phil Wickham w/ a friend and yesterday to the Colbert Report taping. Had tons of fun at all of them! =D
• There is something that I really enjoy doing and that's cooking!! LOVE! So, a night of cooking food together will be awesome! Just chilling at home and cook and and..wait for it! 
• Play video games!!! LOL! Not a lot of people know this..but I enjoy playing video games, only select few tho, mostly fighting games - LOVE Tekken! and some shooting games.. Used to play Counter-Strike a lot when I was younger! LOL! 

1/31/13 - wow, been a while since I updated this..

Xo for now!

-Na-

Freshies!

My 3rd blog now. Clearly I get bored pretty easily. This one will totally be my every not really day randomness, thoughts, etc. We shall see what happened. ;)

Last time I blogged it was 2010! I really should just wait till 2013 and do this, but totally being random just now and thought why the heck not. Actually that's a lie! I was gonna fix my old childish blog but eh.. as how we like it at work, 'freshies' -which means new fresh samples from the warehouse- is always better. So here we are at 2 am! LOL!

Xo for now!

-Na-